It's ok to do what you want... they say... as long as it makes you happy!!! That's an effin sayings...
On the other hand' its hard p do thing that's against your will...
After reading all those messages, I thougt Im ok... yet not!!!
Effin people tells you thing like a walkin dictionary of life experience... Feed you shits assuming that all of peoples life are in pattern.
I pretend to be happy in front of people and act like a clown giving them smile in their faces hoping to take aways a little of their sadness... not knowing that everytime I do that, Their woes adds up to mine...
What the f^@< am I saying...
Putang ina!!! habang sinussulat ko tong blog na to... may dumaan matandang babae at hinawakan ang etuts ko sabay sigaw ng "weeee!!!"
Effin town this is' Im in a town where I first set foot only yesterday. Oh yeah! its holiday and Im working far away from the comfortof my home...
I miss my bed, badly! I'll be going hone tonight. I think I'll ve home at around 9 pm. Repack my bag, head tothe airport at around 3:00 am to catch the flight to Palawan.
Yeah! that's right... More work!!! with no time to fix my ass... and plenty of time to think, reflect and ask my self how stupid I am.
My life is a mess. Stapled and covered with colorful wallpapers to fix it and make it look nice.
I think I'll commit suicide... I'll hang my self tonight or maybe bleed my self to death... yeah right!
I have no one to talk to... or maybe I distrust everyone... I don't know! Im kinda lost...
Because of not having someone to talk to' I think Im kinda sick. When I alone doing nothing or something, taking a bath, or day dreaming. I curse my self, say bad work or scream with no sound. It just happen' Losing my self with liquor or entering vietual reality thru DOTA is the best escape.
I always wonder what will happen when I die!? will the world be a little less miserable!? All I know that my mother will be very sad'
I do have mistakes in life but I will never regret it. For what I am today are the result of my actions.
Thanks blogspot' your like a comfort room... giving comfort and not talking'
